I first heard the word iterative when I was on a project at work more than a few years ago. If you work in a corporate culture, you’re likely well familiar with the term. It ‘s part of the process – figure out what works and what doesn’t during the various project cycles and adjust accordingly. The result might look different than what was first envisioned but, in the end, it’s more aligned with the overall goal.
My tendency, in life and with my personal projects, is to determine the outcome at the beginning and stick with it. I have an idea and know exactly what it’s supposed to look like. I commit quickly to a clear vision and can become hyper-focused on making it happen. Come hell or high water, I’m determined.
When I decided to design a carpet, the end result was very clear to me. Then I started to do some research and I visited Morocco and I added more elements. The picture in my mind got murkier.
I haven’t blogged about the weaving in months but I’ve been puzzling over it. What began as a carpet turned into a series of 4 wall panels, then 3, then 2. I’ve sketched ideas, changed my mind, fretted, sketched again. I’ve refrained from blogging because the iterative process is messy and can feel indecisive. Sometimes I feel … well … flakey.
Last week I figured it out! I landed on the design and felt that surge of completion I’m always looking for. Until…
I had decided on just one panel and sent a sketch of the design to Mohamed, the translator and guide who took me to meet the women of Tighedouine. It included reference to my matriline in the form of a woman cradling generations of wombs, lines to reflect the many chapters in my life and the people in them, and some important symbols around the border. I wasn’t finished, but thought I was well on my way.
But Mohamed confirmed my suspicions – it was too detailed, especially for the size. It’s possible that someone else could make it or that it could be accomplished if the panel was much bigger. But I want it portable so I can take it with me in my travels, and it’s my priority that the weavers in Tighedouine create it for me.
So where am I now?*
I am thinking through my original intention which was to document my life’s journey by reflecting the wealth of experiences and people that have enriched who I am. I need to make it simpler – to take it to a much higher level with lines and colours that portray loneliness and connection, fear, triumph, struggle, hope and strength. And joy – so much joy.
I’ll continue to think and dream, to meditate and look outwards for inspiration. I’m ever determined and not in a hurry – I know completion will happen when it’s meant to.
*subject to change